Monday, December 28, 2009

Children's Ministry

God used volunteers in the children's ministry at my church to save my life. Because these dedicated ladies showed me God's love, I am not a statistic today. I am extremely passionate about my job and am incredibly grateful for the opportunity to show the next generation God's love. Today my boss, Pastor Mike, posted a blog that I want to share; it is just another reason why I am in children's ministry.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Chris Rocks Christmas

Merry Christmas! I hope you are all cozy, with loved ones, and enjoying many blessings. All 6 Christmas Experiences went beautiful at church! :-) Yesterday we were blessed with a beautiful blanket of snow. It made me so happy to see how many people braved the elements to come to church.

Today is our third edition of Chris Rocks Friday. What better time than now to tell you why he rocks Christmas. For the past couple of weeks he has made it his mission to make sure I had no clue about Christmas presents. No joke. He did ask for a list but I had no idea if he opted to get me anything from the list. He wouldn't even tell me if he went shopping for me.

Let me be honest, I tried my best to find out what he had bought for me for Christmas...but this guy wouldn't budge. Impressive but not helpful for my situation. And truth be told, now after opening gifts, he still won't tell me when he went shopping.

Chris did an excellent job of purchasing gifts--I feel spoiled. :-) One of the best gifts he gave me today was lovingly filling my tires with air in the freezing cold. Yep. This guy aired up my tires in the slushy cold so we would be safe on our 200 mile trip up to my Mom's house. I love him!

Merry Christmas!

Hark the Herald Angels Sing

Hark the herald angels sing
"Glory to the newborn King!
Peace on earth and mercy mild
God and sinners reconciled"
Joyful, all ye nations rise
Join the triumph of the skies
With the angelic host proclaim:
"Christ is born in Bethlehem"
Hark! The herald angels sing
"Glory to the newborn King!"

Christ by highest heav'n adored
Christ the everlasting Lord!
Late in time behold Him come
Offspring of a Virgin's womb
Veiled in flesh the Godhead see
Hail the incarnate Deity
Pleased as man with man to dwell
Jesus, our Emmanuel
Hark! The herald angels sing
"Glory to the newborn King!"

Hail the heav'n-born Prince of Peace!
Hail the Son of Righteousness!
Light and life to all He brings
Ris'n with healing in His wings
Mild He lays His glory by
Born that man no more may die
Born to raise the sons of earth
Born to give them second birth
Hark! The herald angels sing
"Glory to the newborn King!"

Thank you God for laying your glory by so that we could be saved!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Christmas at Fellowship Church

We are half way through with our Christmas Experiences for 2009. WOW. It has been absolutely amazing! I attended Tuesday night's experience and loved it so much! Tomorrow services are at 2, 4, and 6. If you're in dfw, come by because you won't want to miss it!

Monday, December 21, 2009


Please pray for my mentor Jackie. She made a tremendous impact on my life and I can't imagine how different I would be if not for her love and guidance. She has stage 4 pancreatic cancer & is in Seoul seeking treatment. According to the doctors, she only has 6 months to live but we know that with God all things are possible. Please keep her and her family in your prayers.

You can follow her journey here.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Chris Rocks Friday part 2

Yep it's time for the second installment of why Chris rocks!

Chris is one of the most patient people I have ever met in my entire life. Now the majority of you don't know the story of us becoming a couple, so let me just throw this out there: I pushed him away every chance I received. I played the hard to get card so well, it should have been renamed the virtually impossible to obtain card. No joke. Yet no matter what I threw at him, he kept pursuing. He was patient as I pushed. He pursued God and me. I need to take the time to type out the story for you guys because then you'll see even more of how wonderfully patient he is.

The patience didn't stop after we started dating. If it's possible he became more patient as he helped me work through my issues (i had no idea i had such trust issues!). Today when I become impatient in traffic or at a situation, he very calmly reminds me that it's not a race. He's so patient & I'm incredibly thankful.

Thursday, December 17, 2009


Today we rearranged our office...this is the second time in the last 3 months. I think this new arrangement will stick around a little longer. We needed to reorganize since we lost Chris. I no longer work in the same office as my darling. He now works as a video editor for the curriculum we produce. I know he's going to learn so much & I'm so excited about the huge impact he gets to have! I will, however, miss being in the same office with him and having the same day off.

With the new arrangement, my desk is in the center of the area and right next to the kitchen area. This means my friends I have the most social seat in the office! YAY! :-)

Also I cleared out some pains me to admit it but I'm a pack rat. I'm trying to get better but old habits die hard. Tomorrow I will take this clear it out mentality to my closet. Since I moved in (about 6 months ago) my closet has been on my to do list. I have items to shred. Tomorrow is the day...after working out, a hair cut, getting the last of Chris' gifts, and finishing wrapping yeah, we'll see about that.

Random Side Note: While out on a purchasing run for Christmas service supplies, I stopped by Sonic. The nice lady in the drive through & I have been building a fun relationship. She asked me how I'd been since I hadn't stopped by recently. So thanks happy hour for allowing a silly connection to build. I plan on stopping by again on Monday to invite her to church...and I may or may not have a gift for her.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

glimpse into the future?

I have a tendency to be hyper competitive at times...Chris has a tendency to be super laid back during just about all times. I was reminded of this when I watched this...

Yes my friends, this may end up being a glimpse into our future...but hopefully I'll have better hair.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Chris Rocks Friday

So my buddy is participating in My Husband Rocks Friday which I think is a ton of fun! Today she posted about how wonderful of a dad her husband is to their precious little one. It made me smile & I thought, "it's a shame Chris & I aren't married so I could do this!" But since I love him and slipped up by calling his father 'Dad' the other day rather than his name (Daryl), I feel like it's ok if I bend the rules and do this. This is from church camp this July. He's Donkey Kong. Yep. In Texas heat in July & August my Chris was Donkey Kong. Not only did he wear a full on gorilla suit but he did physical activities in it to give the kids a 'wow' factor. See Chris rocks because he will do whatever it takes to ensure that kids know God's love & love church. Chris doesn't care about looking ridiculous, spending hours on making an incredible set, or being pushed to the edge physically (seriously this guy did a tri-triathlon in the costume on the last day of camp). Chris does care about children being passionate about God. Chris rocks!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


Let me just be real honest: I'm not, nor have I ever been good at crafts. Even in my vbs days, my projects never quite had that right sand art look. As an adult this lack of crafty skill has multiplied. I don't know how it's possible but somehow I'm even worse at crafts now than I was at 7.

For my students (who will be here for all of our 6 Christmas experiences), I like to have a bit of a party. I teach the k-5th grade students of staff and volunteers who are here for multiple services (they go to a service and attend my room for one). Each week we do a supplemental lesson based on what they are learning in children's worship. I love being the one who gets to show them another Bible story about whatever topic they're learning.

During Christmas though we don't so much do that. It's a celebration in my room! We make presents (hence the crafts) for them to give to family members/friends. We sing Christmas carols. We talk about why this is such a great time of year & how we can share that with others. It's something I look forward to & hopefully my students do too.

However, as mentioned in the top paragraph, I'm not crafty. I am resourceful though. I've found the jackpot of home made holiday crafts for my students. Thank you Disney for providing these easy, adorable crafts that someone like me can make. YAY!

I'm looking forward to planning out all of our crafts, carols, and just getting to celebrate what Christ has done with my students. This really is the greatest time of year!

Monday, November 23, 2009


Today I am thankful for the AMAZING volunteers at Fellowship Church.

Today our office had three of the Chapmans (Karen, Ruslin, and Tessa). This incredible people brought us chocolate chip banana bread. They prepped our weekend. They did so much for us today.

Let me be honest the Chapmans aren't a rarity. There are hundreds of families that are dedicated to serving in whatever capacity that would be. The volunteers in my room continually blow me away. I am constantly amazed/inspired/challenged by them.

Thank You Lord for blessing Fellowship Church with such beautiful, giving people.

Sunday, November 22, 2009


Tonight I am thankful for Sunday afternoon naps. I am so grateful to come home after a great morning of services & rest.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

abnormally loud

Tonight I am thankful God blessed me with a freakishly loud voice.

While needing to get the studetnts' attention tonight, my mic stopped working. I was able to project my voice loud enough that the ENTIRE AUDITORIUM heard me. In times like this, I am reminded of how God crafted us. He knew I would need to be heard & He made me with a freakishly loud voice. I know it seems silly but it doesn't stop me from being thankful.

flag football

I didn't get to post yesterday as I was dog sitting & didn't have my laptop with me.

I am thankful for the opportunity to play flag football with my church. Today is our last game of the season. It's been great getting to be on a team, meeting new people, not getting seriously injured, and watching my sweetheart be athletic. It's been a great season & I'll definitely miss it...thankfully Barry already has an array of spring sports to choose from. Hooray for the sports ministry at church!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

One Week!

In one short week, I get to see my father's side of the family! My precious aunties (amazing cooks & impeccable story tellers), my laid back uncles, my good old boy cousins, my cousins' little ones, and of course, the most precious woman to walk on the planet: my grandma. Chris hasn't met this side of the family (our schedules keep conflicting, someone get sick, etc) so I can't wait to see him interact with them.

Then I get to have Thanksgiving with my Mom, sister, nieces, and nephew! And if I time things just right, I'll be able to make it to Chris' family Thanksgiving as well. Busy, busy, busy but beautiful.

I want to get on the thankfulness train too. I have some friends who have been posting one thing they are thankful for everyday this month. I've really enjoyed reading their posts.

Today I am thankful for my job. I can't believe I get to work at Fellowship Church. I am so blessed to serve God at an amazing church. I am in awe of the leadership God has placed here. The executive pastors are God-ly, wise men who sincerely love God and love others. I am proud of how service is an integral part of everything we do. I love that my volunteers are amazing. I love that my students love God and are welcoming to new students. I love the staff I get to work with--they are hilarious, thoughtful, and sharpen me. Thank You Lord for allowing me for the calling You gave me & for allowing me to serve You!

Monday, November 16, 2009


We are very blessed to be able to produce our children's curriculum in house. One of the perks of this is being able to help edit the rough drafts. I absolutely, positively love doing this! I get out my green fine point sharpie, NLT Bible, and post-it flags and go to town.

The current series we're editing is Entourage. It's all about friendships. The lesson I edited today was about accepting others. Good stuff.

Sunday, November 15, 2009


Sometimes I think before I speak...other times I speak before I think. I can honestly tell you the thinking before speaking thing is a much better decision.

Rather than extending grace, viewing the situation from multiple angles, and thoughtfully weighing out what my words will do to someone else, I say what comes to mind. I have the need to make my voice heard & make my feelings known. This is foolishness. Yes the time will come that I need to express my feelings but it isn't around the clock.

This week I've been learning a lot: hope, grace, forgiveness, patience, and self-control. I have a feeling that I will continually be learning about these things. It's awful admitting that I don't have it together but it's true.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Always Hope


You need it. I need it. God gives it.

Can you get so far away from God that you can’t come back?

The history of Israel is full of ups and downs. After asking God for a king, Israel had two kings but by king number 3, the kingdom separated. Judah & Israel each had their own king. Unfortunately, however, not all of the kings were good. In fact the majority of the kings were bad.

Despite having a God-ly father, one king was one of the wickedest people to ever walk the earth. He sacrificed his son in fire to idols. He restored all of the pagan idols his father had destroyed. He led the people astray. One day though, everything changed. His country was invaded & he was taken captive. During this time, he genuinely repented & God graciously forgave him. Manasseh finished strong.

The story of Manasseh gives us hope. No matter how far away someone is from God, there is always hope. You can read more about him in 2 Kings 20:21-21:18 and 2 Chronicles 33:1-20.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

good morning?

Sunny D has take along size bottles of juice. This is the bright spot of my morning.

Now please know I do enjoy mornings. I love the stillness in them. I love the possibilities. I do not, however, love starting them before I should.

This morning I woke up at 2:11. I tried to go back to sleep but at 2:22 I realized it was a futile attempt. So I got up. I put on my shoes & hit the treadmill. I jogged a mile with three pound weights then did five additional minutes with eight pound weights. I did some crunches. I did some leg lifts. I thought this would do the trick.

I got a small glass of water. I went to lie back down and couldn't fall asleep. Around 5:30 I drifted off to sleep for about forty-five minutes. I got back up, took a shower, and started getting ready for the day.

As I was leaving for work, I was able to visit with my neighbor Linda. Not only does this woman have great stories & is hilarious but she's from South Africa. Her accent is BEAUTIFUL. I could listen to her talk all day....which works out nicely as she's a bit of a talker like I am.

I'm a little concerned for today. I am praying I don't snap off someone's head as the day progresses. I don't want to be a grumpy pumpkin today...especially since we have Flavour tonight (our monthly women's service) & I'm one of the greeters.

I'm also a little concerned that I'll just be the queen of random. See my already flimsy filter seems to disappear the more tired I become.

So it looks like one of two options will happen: grumpy pumpkin or random girl. If I send you an odd email, text, or whatever I sincerely apologize.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Romans 8:1

Romans 8 (The Message)

The Solution Is Life on God's Terms
1-2With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ's being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.

Romans 8 (NIV)

Life Through the Spirit
1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,2because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.

Romans 8 (NLT)

Life in the Spirit
1 So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. 2 And because you belong to him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the power of sin that leads to death.

Romans 8 (KJV)

1There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.

2For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.

Romans 8 (HCSB)

The Life-Giving Spirit
1 Therefore, no condemnation now exists for those in Christ Jesus, 2 because the Spirit's law of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death.

I don't know about you, but I have a tendency to over-analyze a situation. I set extremely high expectations for myself & when I feel like I fail, I think about this repeatedly. I think about how much better things could have been if only i had (insert whatever is applicable to the situation). I don't know exactly why I do this but I do know I need to stop doing it. I need to not allow myself to relive my failures & think through them at every possible angle.

Today on the Stuff Christians Like blog, Jon wrote about this. It was just what I needed to read today. Please click the link & check it out...especially if you have a tendency to rewrite Romans 8:1 for yourself.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


Last year we were the dynamic duo. We had a fabulous time as Batman & Robin. As Halloween is Chris' favorite holiday & I tend to generate fifty costume ideas a year, this was a great time for us.

This year we've been pretty busy with everything going on at church. We wanted to have some quality costumes with a creative flair. We tossed out several ideas & decided on being The Wicked Witch of (south)West and a Flying Monkey. This may not seem too creative to you so please let me unpack a little more of this idea for you:
  • Southwest Airlines corporate headquarters shuts down on Halloween (or the Friday before pending on the day) for a huge party. Different departments decorate hq, put on shows, and even have a haunted maze. (fyi: Chris' mom works for southwest)
  • By being the wicked witch of the southwest, I'm decorating my broom with Southwest Air colors (ribbons tied around the handle) & will put planes in the brush. I'm also wearing southewest wings pinned to my collar.
  • Chris will wear a pear of costume wings and have a carry on bag...since bags fly free at Southwest.

Our church is having Trunk or Treat after service on Saturday and I won't be dressed as a witch. I thought I would be Dorothy (The Wizard of Oz is my all time favorite movie). This afternoon I took a little time out from the office, grabbed a pumpkin spice latte, and decided to look for my Dorothy shoes. I have a pair of red peep toe mini wedges but didn't think this was very ruby red slipper-y. I went to the mall & looked for red shoes. I found an amazing pair of 3 inch stilettos that aren't sparkly but are certainly fierce. I decided these would work just fine for Dorothy....and I could wear them multiple times (especially during conference season).

When we left church tonight we decided to hit up Party City. I found a very modest Dorothy costume (hard to believe but true! the skirt went to the knees & it wasn't skin tight!!!). I waited in line to try it on and I was beaming. I had on my new red shoes & couldn't wait to try on the costume. I knew this would be great!

A lady and her middle school aged daughter were in front of me. They also had a Dorothy costume but it wasn't was probably the playboy take on Dorothy. The mother took the costume out of the package and held it up to her daughter. The mother voiced a couple of concerns on the length & low cut parts of the costume. The daughter convinced her it would be ok.

The mother, who seemed still a little unsure, asked if there were any other Dorothy costumes. I politely held up my costume and mentioned there was another Dorothy style costume. The mother gets this disgusted look on her face, evaluates both costumes, then says, 'Yeah but this one is cute,' and points at the costume her daughter has.

So that was a bit awkward...

I tried on my costume & it looked AWFUL. I decided I couldn't do this to someone as beloved as Dorothy Gale. We left Party City & headed to a Halloween store in another part of town. I wasn't able to find a Dorothy costume but I did find my witch costume that looks EXTREMELY similar to the movie version. I also scored an AMAZING broom for a mere $5.

All I need to pick up now for Friday's party is black lipstick & black fingernail polish. I still need to think of a costume idea for Saturday. I could always were what I wore in our promo video...but it's a little heavy. What do you think?

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Star Wars in Concert: a picture post

Thanks so much to Chris' amazingly generous uncle Brandon for the tickets. It was a blast!

Thursday, October 22, 2009


Yes I misspelled dinosaur...and yes it was on purpose.

Tonight Chris & I had a lovely date night courtesy of the BBC & the aac. We went "Walking with the Dinosaurs". It was incredible! I can't believe how far puppeteering/robotics have come. I think I enjoyed it even more than I thought.

Growing up I played with a dinosaur play set. I had a dinosaur blanket. I love dinosaurs. Chris also has loved dinosaurs for his lifetime too. I think the two of us enjoyed it more than the kids in attendance.

Up next: date challenge: watch 2 movies in theaters then off to Star Wars in Concert.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Date Nights

Tomorrow Chris & I will be at Walking with Dinosaurs or as I spelled it on his calendar "Walk with Dinosaurars!". This is very exciting as both of us were fascinated by dinosaurs as children. I can't wait to see it & even more I can't wait to see Chris watch it.

Friday night Chris & I will be at Star Wars in Concert courtesy of his very generous uncle Brandon. We're also going to try to work in a matinee of "Where the Wild Things Are"...we're feeling pretty ambitious.

I can't believe we get to do both of these and right after each other. What an unexpected blessing!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

work (another view)

Judges 2:6-13 (The Message)

6-9 After Joshua had dismissed them, the People of Israel went off to claim their allotted territories and take possession of the land. The people worshiped God throughout the lifetime of Joshua and the time of the leaders who survived him, leaders who had been in on all of God's great work that he had done for Israel. Then Joshua son of Nun, the servant of God, died. He was 110 years old. They buried him in his allotted inheritance at Timnath Heres in the hills of Ephraim north of Mount Gaash.

10 Eventually that entire generation died and was buried. Then another generation grew up that didn't know anything of God or the work he had done for Israel.

11-15 The People of Israel did evil in God's sight: they served Baal-gods; they deserted God, the God of their parents who had led them out of Egypt; they took up with other gods, gods of the peoples around them. They actually worshiped them! And oh, how they angered God as they worshiped god Baal and goddess Astarte! God's anger was hot against Israel: He handed them off to plunderers who stripped them; he sold them cheap to enemies on all sides. They were helpless before their enemies. Every time they walked out the door God was with them—but for evil, just as God had said, just as he had sworn he would do. They were in a bad way.

I love the way the Message puts this: 'they took up with other gods, gods of the peoples around them. They actually worshiped them!' This passage of scripture is sobering. To think one generation grew up not knowing God & to see how it put them 'in a bad way' is heartbreaking. This is why I take my job seriously.

Show kids God's love. Help kids love church. That's what I get to do. So yeah, sometimes I do something silly and other times I am able to see kids hold onto the fact that God's way is the best. It's humbling & exciting!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009


A recap of my work day:

9:30 arrive to work
10 Volunteer Wade comes to help out & brings us all candy
10:30 study, study, study
11 email details of my program to another church
11:30 birthday lunch for Jenny R
1 costume selection for video shoot
1:30 trunk or treat promo video for children's services
2 music video shoot for Elevate series
2:30 prep for service tonight
4 email volunteers info for the weekend & study, study, study
6 check in for services
7:30 teach about trusting God to a group of k-5 students
8:30 head home

I can't believe I get to do this!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Hello again bloggy world! How are you? It's been a bit since my last post. I've been reading but not posting. I've been trying to decide what to do with this blog. Do I make it all serious? Do I use it to just update on the happenings of my world (ie adventures with Chris)? Do I start making it encouraging and challenging? No clue. I think a mixture of the three would be ideal so that's my plan...we'll see if it comes to fruition.

In case you haven't noticed, it's officially fall. I'm wearing a sweater dress & a pair of boots (that I got at a steal of a deal thanks to Kohls). Since it's fall, that means football, pies, and warm colors. I went to LD Bell's homecoming last night. It was the 50th anniversary of the Raiderette dance team. Chris' mom was a Raiderette so she performed with other alumni at the half time show. It was so cold! I sat on my quilo (throw your hands up if you own one--they are fantastic, aren't they?) while covering up with my lambie (also fantastic). We left in the 3rd quarter since Aimee & I decided we were not made for the cold. Sidenote: the LD Bell band is incredible.

Today we didn't have a football game as it's Columbus Day weekend. I slept in, had a big breakfast (breakfast is much too underrated), and am leisurely getting ready to head up to the church. My goal is to arrive between 2-3. I love Saturday night service. My room is open up 3:30 for volunteer & staff kids. At 5:40, however, I take all of the students to their age appropriate worship rooms. Then I head to service. I love going on Saturday so on Sunday I can fill in my volunteers & hear their thoughts on the service.

Speaking of volunteers, I need to finish getting ready so I can write some cards. Don't you just love cards?

Friday, September 25, 2009


Tomorrow after our first official flag football game of the season, I will rush to Fort Worth to share a pizza & pack some boxes. I get to see another set of beautiful friends head out on a great adventure. Brandon, Cindy, & little Corban will be moving to Europe to work with refugees. Wow. I can't wait to see them! I can't wait to make up ridiculous moving day songs & give baby Corban the greatest musical tribute he's ever experienced in his short life. :-) Don't you wish I could help you move?

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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

wordy word words...

I sometimes find it difficult to effectively communicate my passion for my job through typed words. I absolutely, positively love my job.

Currently we're changing the description of my room. As you know, we've already changed the look of it (and I promise pictures will come soon!!!). I'm working on a write up of what I want to let the other departments know about the change. I want them to know my room isn't just the room where kids go when they're here for more than one service or the video game room. No. No. No. My room is so much more than that.

First I believe I have some of the most incredible volunteers of all time. If you could meet these people, you would be blown away by their gentleness, beautiful hearts, and their willingness to do whatever it takes to make sure our students know about God. These people will challenge you to be more simply by being who they are. It's remarkable.

Second the students in my room are so encouraging. These kids (kindergarten through fifth graders) desire to serve God and serve others. Do you realize how much of a rarity that is? These students also devour Bible stories. They learn them, share them, and ask insightful questions. I am blown away by my students.

My challenge is to communicate how our room is a place for students to be empowered, equipped, and encouraged to live out the lives God has for them. How do I put this into words to show that by parents volunteering (thus allowing their students to be here for more than one service & in my room), their children benefit too? Whenever I talk to volunteer tours, I just let it flow...when you have only a certain amount of space for type, how do you communicate the same passion?

Any and all suggestions are welcome.

On an unrelated note: make sure to check out Nightline tomorrow (Thursday, September 24th, 10:35 cst) to see the debate. This is the kick off of their 10 commandments series. Pastor Ed & Jonathan Daugherty debate the implications of adultery with Noel Bidderman (creator of Ashley Madison site that allows people to discretely have affairs) & Jenny Block (author). Trust me, you want to tivo this.

Saturday, September 19, 2009


I love flag football. I love it so incredibly much that this season is going to be much, much, much too short. :-) I was able to play the entire game & I didn't feel crazy exhausted or anything. I got a couple of 'tackles' & even got to carry the ball a few times. Oh dear goodness--I loved it! Chris had a great time too. I just emailed out my schedule to his family so maybe they can catch a game sometime. Look for more football posts to come my friends.


In about two hours, Chris & I will participate in our first flag football game of the season. The last time I played football was about five years ago. I can't tell you the last time I went for a run so I'm feeling a little nervous for today. Since it's co-ed church league every third play a girl has to touch the ball. The captain, Byron, only knows me out of the group of girls. I'm really hoping he doesn't decide to give me the ball a lot. I would HATE to embarrass Chris...and myself.

I'm excited and nervous! I think that's what caused me to wake up before 7 this morning.

Friday, September 18, 2009

the debate

Over 4,000 people were in attendance for the debate last night. WOW. Thank you so much for praying for Pastor Ed & passing information about the debate on to others.

I didn't get to watch the debate since we had children's services for those in attendance. I was with the 4 & 5 graders and we had a jolly good time. I can't wait to watch the debate--parents kept telling me just how amazing it was.

It was great to read/watch the news covering the debate too. So if you didn't see the debate last night, it will air on Thursday, September 24. You won't want to miss it!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Affairs, Adultery, Ashley Madison

An affair sent my family into overdrive when I was ten years old. Don't get me wrong, things had been rocky prior to the revelation of my father having an affair with his secretary, but that's when things really shattered. This led to my parents divorcing, my mother turning into an angry/bitter/mean version of herself, my father eventually going to jail, and my mom having to work two jobs to support my sister and me. I spent more time below the poverty line than I did above it. I spent more time being angry than happy. I was a wreck but thankfully God was with me through it all. He strategically placed people in my path who loved me. This made all of the difference in the world. Healing occurred. My faith strengthened. I learned no matter what, I would always have God.

My story is no different than thousands of others. In my small town, it was more of a rarity to meet another student with married parents...married to their first spouse.

Tomorrow night (Thursday, September 17), my pastor gets to debate AGAINST adultery. Nightline will be at Fellowship Church filming a debate on if adultery is wrong. Ashley Madison is a social networking site that helps people discretely have affairs. The CEO of Ashley Madison will try to convince the viewers of Nightline (and those in attendance for the debate) that adultery is a good thing.

If you're in DFW, I invite you to come & watch the debate. It starts at 6:30 pm (I'd try to arrive by 6:15 at the latest). We will have children's services for birth through fifth grade. Trust me we'll have a fantastic evening planned for the children.

You can get more details here.

Friday, September 11, 2009


I am not quite sure why I've been so spoiled this birthday but i'm going to roll with it. I don't know if it's due to the fact my birthday was 9/9/9 and I turned 27 (9 + 9 + 9 = 27) or just because Chris decided to continue his reign of awesome.

Let's recap shall we?

Wednesday: Chris bring flowers (he arranged them himself--complete with 9 roses in the bouquet) & spa gift. The entire office goes out for birthday lunch at 7 Salsas. We have afternoon cookie cake (with dinosaur frosting--you have to admit the genius of that). After work Chris buys me the yellow shoes I wanted. Great day.

Thursday: Chris takes me to celebrate my birthday at the Nashar. I get to see some Matisse up close and personal. Amazing! Then dinner at the cheesecake factory...such a great choice.

Friday: I get my massage/manicure/pedicure. Can I just endorse massages for a minute? Wow. It was incredible! Then off to Chris' to watch Star Wars prequel movie marathon. You may be curious as to why I opted for Star Wars prequel rather than Legally Blond. That's a great thing to wonder. The guys in the office had talked a bit about just the awkwardness/greatness that surrounds the prequels. Since I hadn't watched it in a while, I thought it was time for a refresher.

It was a great 3 day celebration. Very unexpected....very wonderful.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

so far, so awesome!

This is such an amazing day!!!! It is indeed dino-mite!!!


Like New Years, birthdays have a tendency to lend themselves to reflection.

If you had asked me where I would be twenty years ago, I most likely would have responded with this, ‘I will have my own tv show. I will sing & tell jokes that will make people happy. ‘

Fifteen years ago would have had a response like this, ‘I will be married to a very handsome man. I will be housewife with two kids and a maid.’

If you had asked me where I would be ten years ago, I would have given you this answer: ‘At 27, I’ll be working towards a doctorate in literature at Duke University. I will be either engaged or married to a minister. We probably will be applying to do missions in Malawi, Africa.’ That’s a pretty good plan.

If you had asked me that question five years ago, ‘I will be married and on the mission field or at a church plant. We’ll help those who have been deceived & show them the Truth. I’ll lead a Bible study in our home and do mostly community outreach.’

Now here I am at one of the largest churches in the United States, running a discipleship program for kindergarten through fifth grade students. I get the opportunity to show kids God’s love & help kids love church. I am able to write my own lessons. I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me more than I thought possible (and trust me it’s definitely reciprocated).

I never would have guessed that God would have me in the Bible belt at a megachurch…ever. Yet here I am. It’s amazing to think that God had this for me all along—this is my mission field. I get to help train children in God’s way so they can impact multiple generations.

It’s official: I’m now in my late 20s. I don’t know exactly what this means except that I get to live a little longer & hopefully have some more adventures.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

The Traveling Man

Chris' family is amazing! Seriously talented, humble, wonderful people comprise his family. Tonight was the grand reveal for his uncle Brandon 3 sculptures in Deep Ellum (in Dallas) called The Traveling Man.

It started in Fair Park at the African American Museum. We were given an opportunity to check out the George Washington Carver exhibit (not allowed to take pics) on loan from Chicago before hopping on the brand new green line of Dart (officially opens September 14).

At each stop, we were able to see the station art & hear from the artist. It was really cool & something you'll want to check out the next time you're taking the Dart. The final stop of the night was the Deep Ellum station. The station artist spoke then it was Brandon's turn.

He explained the vision behind it & also credited the other artists (including Brad Oldham standing next to Brandon). Then we went exploring.
While we were exploring, I might have felt just a tad ummm...wanna be modelish? Anyway around each of the three sculptures are these amazing birds which double as chairs.

This is the Traveling Man Awakening. You can lounge on his head which is pretty neat & makes for an interesting picture...

This is the Traveling Main: Waiting on a Train. He's propping himself up with a piece from the original tunnel that was the gateway into Deep Ellum. It is a great addition to the piece--you can also sit on the tunnel portion (proudly displaying 1930, the year it was built).
This is the Traveling Man Walking Tall. He is directly across from the Deep Ellum dart station. If you notice, 6'4" Chris is standing in front of his left leg. The Traveling Man stands 38' tall. It is incredible.

While Chris & I were exploring, a couple was taking wedding pictures in front of the Waiting on a Train. I now want to take every guest I have & pose them in front of the Traveling Man. I think he's so incredibly amazing!

Monday, August 31, 2009

add it to the list

I love my boyfriend.

Tonight he took me out on a Monday date night. Now you have to know that Mondays are probably my worst day. I attribute it to something Pastor Ed calls 'the holy hangover'. After a weekend of services, I really struggle with focus & productivity.

Stop number one: Waffle House. I know what you're thinking, 'really sb? waffle house?' You have to understand, I LOVE the WAFFLE HOUSE! It reminds me of certain parts of my hometown & I love breakfast. Did you know the Waffle House has a juke box complete with songs dedicated to the Waffle House? It's hilarious & wonderful.

Stop number two: the movies to see '500 Days of Summer'. I loved this movie! It's a buy. I love quirky movies (thank you Fox Searchlight!) and love seeing Joseph Gordon-Levitt working again! It was great to see a girlier movie as this summer has been packed with boy movies (trust me, i was tapping out of any more testosterone driven movies for a bit). It was also great that Chris enjoyed the movie too.

So add tonight to the very long list of reasons why I love my boyfriend.

Friday, August 28, 2009


Last week Mitch & Jennie were blessed with a BEAUTIFUL baby girl: Colbie. I've been known to babysit their oldest: Carly (quite possibly the cutest 2 year old in the world). Wednesday I went over to their house & met this gorgeous baby girl. She is TINY & PERFECT! The best part of the visit was watching Carly with her baby sister.

She is a precious big sister. She showed me the proper way to hold Colbie (she cradled her arms & swung them from side to side). She also showed me how to give Colbie kisses & how to hug her. Carly is so proud of her baby sister. It's so sweet to watch! Unfortunately I was too enamored to take out my camera--but I plan on visiting those precious sisters soon...and when I do, no worries, I'll post b/c trust me, it will melt your heart!

**Update: I got a few pics from Mitch....I told you they were sweet!!!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Giveaway from Whitney!


Seriously, this lady has the best giveaways! Click on the above link to enter.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009


Summer is officially over. 3 weeks of church camp & a weekend of family fun festing are finished. Now it's time to look at the possibilities for the fall: classes, retreats, and before you know it, Christmas services.

Since things are slowing down, I think it's time to find a routine. Tonight Chris & I played Mario Cart then went to the movies. We had movie dinner meaning he had a milkshake & I had most of a funnel cake. This is fun for every now and then but I need to get into a routine of cooking dinner & not allowing my laundry to pile up for weeks.

I'm not quite sure how that will look or how to accomplish it, so suggestions are welcome.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Blob Video

The Blob Video is an office favorite. During week three of camp, three of our four stage characters blobbed (i also blobbed but i wasn't a character). This video has two of the three blobbing. Just to give you a bit of perspective "Mario" (Ryan) is about 5'6" & Jimmy is about 6'5" and a former professional wrestler. Enjoy.


Four stores later, I have all of the items for my student's backpack. Today he & his dad are coming up to the church to pick it up. As I was pulling in, I thought I should bring everything into the office--after all, I'd hate for his crayons to melt. I toss the backpack on my back, grab the extra bag (b/c not everything fit in the backpack), and realized this was ridiculously heavy!

In five hours, I get to give him his backpack! I can't wait! I picked up a handful of items that weren't on his list b/c I thought they were something he would enjoy. :-)

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

School Supplies

After two hours of scavenging, I am only four items away from getting all of the school supplies needed for tomorrow. Our church is having a back to school drive & I adopted one of the boys in my room. I can't wait to give him his Cowboys backpack bursting with all of those back to school goodies.

I was amazed at some of the deals ($0.25 for a box of crayons, $0.15 for a notebook, $0.35 for a ruler) and slightly surprised at the cost of some items ($4 for a binder, really?). Four items on the list are a bit elusive (specific art paper & red pens) but tomorrow morning before heading into the office, I plan to hit up the office supply stores to mark those off my list.

Challenge: have you thought about picking up some school supplies & donating them to local schools? Think about it: you spending a dollar on crayons (or folders or whatever ridiculously cheap item you prefer) could definitely brighten some students' year. It could also brighten the teacher's year too...that means less money out of their budget (we all know education isn't funded like it should be & teachers are underpaid).

And on a totally unrelated note, buying school supplies causes me to think of bouquets of freshly sharpened pencils which leads me to think of my favorite romantic comedy of all time: "You've Got Mail".

Joe Fox: So what's his handle?
Kathleen Kelly: Uh...
Joe Fox: I'm not going to write him, if that's what you're worried about. You think I'm going to e-mail him?
Kathleen Kelly: All right... NY152.
Joe Fox: N-Y-one-five-two. One hundred and fifty-two. He's... one hundred and fifty-two years old. He's had one hundred and fifty-two moles removed, so now he's got one hundred and fifty-two pock marks on his face.
Kathleen Kelly: The number of people who think he looks like Clark Gable.
Joe Fox: One hundred and fifty-two people who think he looks like a Clark BAR.
Kathleen Kelly: [laughing] Why did I ever tell you this?
Joe Fox: One hundred and fifty-two stitches from his nose job. The number of souvenir shot glasses that he's collected in his travels.
Kathleen Kelly: No! The number... his address? No, no, he would never do anything that prosaic.

Family Fun Fest

It's the biggest event in Fellowship Church's history. It happens this weekend after services on Saturday & Sunday. If you're in the dfw area, please stop by & check it out.

God has big things in store & this weekend is just the kick off...

Thursday, August 13, 2009


The past three days I've redone my room at church (with some help from Chris, Preston, and Marty). I've got to say--I'm very pleased! It looks bigger, brighter, and better. So the next you're by, let me know & I'll show it off to you.

Longer updates to come after this week is finished. :-)

Saturday, August 8, 2009

happy! happy! camp! camp! yay!

Let me just start off my saying that I am incredibly blessed with a dream job. Yes, I am a church lady. A church lady at a church that focuses on loving their neighbor, community outreach, and furthering God's Kingdom. It is amazing.

I got back in beautiful dfw around 4:30. After spending another week at camp, I am completely in awe that I get to do what I do. I get to work in a children's ministry that is like NOTHING else I've ever seen. I get to show them God's love & help them love church. God has given me stupendous volunteers who go above & beyond the call of duty.

It's humbling.

This week at camp, God held a mirror up to me & showed me the nastiness in my life. God graciously reminded me that He brings change & makes all things new. I have some areas to improve upon & it starts now.

I was also reminded the importance of being an armor bearer. Fourteen months ago, my boss had us all read God's Armor Bearer (volumes 1 & 2) by Terry Nance. It was impactful. I highly recommend reading it. I want to be a better armor bearer--I want to support the team God has placed me on in such a way that He is glorified. I want my boss to be freed up to minister more because I am supporting him in all that he does. I want to be a servant leader who furthers God's Kingdom.

It was a great two weeks at camp. I have great expectations for this fall--I can't wait to see how God continues to move.

Saturday, August 1, 2009


I used to be really good about staying in touch with people. Freakishly so. I'd email & call on a weekly basis or semi weekly basis. I knew what was going on not due to twitter or facebok but because I had taken the time to call them.

Over the last couple of years, I've really dropped the ball. Seriously it's embarrassing how poorly of a job I've done of the last eighteen months or so. Things change now. Tonight after services I called four precious friends to get in touch. I left two messages & talked to the other two. I can't wait talk to more.

I realize my timing isn't the best as I leave for camp after service & won't be able to make contact for a week. So friends (especially from OBU), just you wait--you'll get some calls soon. Bloggy friends I'll see you in about a week.

Friday, July 31, 2009


You know what makes me happy? Laid-back, simple, stormy nights with my favorite person.

Yesterday my stomach & I had a big wasn't pretty. Today we made up which led to a lovely day. I lounged around in my pjs for a while, watched "Carrie" (i forgot just how much of a crazy pill the mom, prettied up, then headed over to Chris'. He did some laundry...I helped. We rested. We watched some silly stuff on tv. We had a pizza. The storms rolled in & we watched.

This was a beautiful & simple day.

Thank You God for this relaxing day.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Gilmore Girls Quote

Zach: Yeah. Dave, you're a Christian. So what? That's cool.
Brian: It's nothing to hide.
Zach: Christians can still rock.
Dave: They can?
Lane: Yeah, yeah, Dave. Christians can still rock, don't hide it.
Zach: Marshall Stacks don't know Christians from atheists.
Dave: Gosh, I just wasn't sure if you guys would be accepting of my devoutness.
Brian: Dave, it's a part of you, and we think you're cool, so it's cool.
Dave: Great. Thanks, guys.
Zach: But no way are we playing Creed, man.
Dave: Oh, no, of course not.
Zach: Or Amy Grant. That's where we draw the line.


I too draw the line at Creed & Amy Grant.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

The Biggest Loser

Teaching camp Bible study last week left me exhausted. It was the equivalent of doing 3 weekend services five days in a row. To combat this for next week, Chris graciously agreed to workout with me.

Now you have to understand Chris is thin but he's ripped. The kid is in good shape & is naturally athletic. I am naturally thin & am pretty lacking in the coordination department. So when we work out together, it's typically a comical sight....and you get to see my persuasiveness in action.

Last night we did upper body. I HATE upper body with a passion. My arms are thin enough...and really do I need to lift ridiculously heavy things? Nope. Chris did some free weights while I did the machines. I did a set on each upper body machine & happily skipped over to Chris.

"Are you ready?" --sb
"To do another set of everything? Yes." --Chris
"What?" --sb (smile leaves)
"We need to do at least two sets of everything." --Chris
"But I don't hurt right now & I did a set of everything." --sb (with puppy dog eyes)
"So you need to do some free weights too. Eventually we'll do three sets of everything. One set is just a warm up." --Chris

So I did another set of everything & my arms aren't too pleased with my boyfriend. All I want to know is why my triceps hate me today.

After work, we'll do lower body. After work, Chris will turn into Bob Harper again. This working out thing is making me really appreciate The Biggest Loser. Those people are even more amazing than I give them credit--after one set, I was ready to quit.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

last week

It's Tuesday. Super Cute Tuesday for Alisha, Carolyn, and myself. We without planning it, all came in super cute today & I think this is due to the storms from the past two days. Of course, our hair will be up in a pony tail in humidity like that--I just can't rock a fro like I used to. (wink)

It's so good to be back in the office for a taste of normalcy...kinda. Last week I was at Allaso Ranch. Our church has been so incredibly blessed to be able to have this camp. It truly is a place for life change. While we were at camp, I was able to teach about 300 precious kids everyday. I also got to zipline & swim with these kids too...rough but someone's got to do it.

I came home on Saturday, changed clothes, and did service. Sunday I woke up with NO VOICE! Crazy times. After services, I headed over to Chris' Mamaw's house for his daddy's birthday lunch. Storms rolled through so I ended up staying until around 9. It was really sweet to wtch the storms with Chris on the back porch. I asked him if we could do this when we were old...even if we had metal hips. He said we could. :-)

Monday was ridiculous. I was in a haze all day. I couldn't focus, I couldn't correctly formulate sentences, I was a mess! A mess with a voice though. We decided working out wasn't our best choice for after work (seriously me with weights would have been an accident waiting to happen), so we went desk shopping.

Yes, desk shopping--no, not for office supplies. As you know I work in a children's ministry. Our office is full of color & toys. Poor Chris only has three fun pieces on his desk...something that just doesn't seem right. We hit up Toys R Us, Boomerang Comics, Target, Dollar Tree, and WalMart. Chris now has lots of fun items for his desk.

Today I feel much more composed. I have a clear direction on what I need to write for the next three weekends of services. It feels good. I also get to go shopping for camp prizes today!

Now to give you a head's up, I fully intend on filling you in on the happenings at Allaso Ranch but that will be for a much more together, longer post.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Anniversary Date!

This past Wednesday was my one year anniversary with Chris! {We went out on Friday though as my sweet baby (she's 10 but she's still the baby of the fam) was staying with me until Thursday.} This year has flown by & I am so incredibly thankful to have such a God-ly man in my life.

Chris planned our date--he wouldn't tell me what we were doing but he did tell me our date had three parts: an outdoors portion, dinner, and a movie. Planning out what to wear was difficult--do I pack a gym bag, how do I fix my hair, and what shoes should I wear?

You can guessed that I tried to figure out what we were doing for a while...and was very unsuccessful. He did give me enough information while I was getting ready to know just to dress pretty & not bring a gym bag.

We went to downtown Fort Worth. Stop number one: Fort Worth Water Gardens. I have lived here for three years & had no idea this existed. Unfortunately I forgot my camera but here's a link of some beautiful shots--we climbed the steps down the active pool. I was a little nervous as I was in about 3.5 in heels but he kept me safe. I didn't slip or trip once thanks to him.

After exploring this incredible oasis, we walked to dinner. Sure we had the option to drive but it was such a beautiful night & I LOVE downtown Ft Worth. While we were walking he asked me if I had any idea of where we were going to dinner. Of course, I said no, so he gave me a hint: it's like a cousin of your favorite food. I guessed Brazilian food & shock of all shocks--I was right!

We went to Texas de Brazil for dinner. I'd heard of it but wasn't too sure what all was in store. We went to the 'salad' bar--oh my goodness: sushi, fancy cheese, and tons of really cool stuff were on this circular salad bar. I tried a few new things including the soup of the day: lobster bisque.

We had little round cards to flip over--the green side means bring food, the red side means stop. Servers walk around with a variety of meat & cut you off a portion. I think I had about ten different types of meat. This place was incredible--so yummy! Dessert also was incredible--I love this place & hope it becomes an anniversary tradition.

As we spent so long at dinner we missed the showing of Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince at the downtown theatre but thankfully an 11:45 showing was going on at Grapevine Mills. We headed back over & the movie was great.

Chris knocked it out of the park--this date was better than I expected & he is so thoughtful! I can't wait to see what this next year holds!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

happy happy camp camp yay!

We leave for church camp in three days...three days. Allaso Ranch is a tremendous blessing. Our church opened it last year & we are so thankful! We love it. I can't wait!

I could, however, use a substantial amount of more time....

Sunday, July 12, 2009

the ring is coming soon...

Today little 8 year old Sidney was in our office. Her mom is an AMAZING volunteer & Sidney was just kicking around. Literally. The girl stole my shoes--I chased, tackled, and tickled her. She is so funny. She calls Chris 'Fuzz' based on a previous character he's played.

This afternoon I'm at my desk, just typing away, when she comes over & plops down in Chris' chair.

"Where does Fuzz sit?" --Sidney
I point at where she's sitting.
"Oh. You like Chris." --Sidney
"Yes. I do like Chris. I love him." --sb
"You love him?" --Sidney with a sly grin
"I'm going to say something that sounds weird. I mean, it will sound really weird. I kinda don't want to say it because of how weird it'll sound." --Sidney with a very mischievous look
"Ok" --sb with a smile
"It's weird." sigh. "The ring is coming." --Sidney with a look of anticipation
"Ok." --sb with a confused smile
"No. The ring is coming soon." --Sidney with an even greater look of anticipation
"You're getting a ring?" --sb purposefully not showing comprehension
Sidney points at Chris' desk.
"Chris is getting a ring?"--sb
"No. The ring is coming soon." --Sidney slightly frustrated
"Chris is giving me ring soon? He's going to ask me to marry him & give me a ring?"--sb with a sly smile
"YES!" --Sidney with a very happy look
"Do you know when?" --sb
"The ring is coming soon." --Sidney with a sly look
Chris enters. Sidney looks away from him.

Now I'm curious as to why she thinks that. Chris isn't going to propose to me this week or any time soon. I like not knowing. I also like other people thinking they know when I'll be engaged. I think I might make a score card for when people ask, how they ask, and give a prize to the person who comes up with the most creative way of asking me about it.

Saturday, July 11, 2009


We have very different takes on how to spend time while waiting for a table...I think pictures are fun to take & he, well, doesn't quite agree.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

still learning...

Do you ever find when God is trying to teach you something, He tends to bring it up over and over again? You have difficulty sleeping, focusing, and you get cranky... Is it just me? I tend to think that after the first time, I've got it. This is clearly not the case as the Holy Spirit continues to remind me about patience...

I like to read the Stuff Christians Like Blog. Today the post is about the gift of the desert road. In my face--totally in my face. It's a fresh perspective that I needed...I was humbled and challenged by this.

Monday, July 6, 2009

little things

I love hymns. I have my very own Baptist Hymnal on my bookshelf. During my teenage years, I could tell you what hymn we were singing the moment the number was announced. I love, love, love hymns.

One hymn in particular (song 644 in my edition of the bh) is Count Your Many Blessings. It talks about how when you feel everything is crashing in and you take stock of your life, how surprised you'll be by just how many blessings God has given you.

Let me recap my day for you:
1. woke up after a lovely night's rest
2. was able to get ready in remarkable time
3. reviewed/edited three Elevate lessons
4. had lunch with my boyfriend
5. traffic was exceptionally light
6. helped dog sit (translation: i played with cosita)
7. my boyfriend made us dinner (tacos my favorite)
8. shot basketball with him
9. watched 1/2 of the bachelorette with him (and he hardly complained at all)
10. played three rounds of mario kart with chris before i left
11. bought gas for $0.06 cheaper than usual

So nothing particularly stellar happened today but I am in awe of just how all of these little things made for a beautiful Monday. Thank You Jesus for today!

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Show Me the Money!

Please watch! My church is having a contest & the most views's the guys' in my office take on Jerry Maguire!

Friday, July 3, 2009

There Will Be Blood

i'm almost finished with this movie and i'm sooo incredibly tense. i can't believe heart is RACING...and i keep trying to distract myself with other things so i won't be like this.

my love of stories sometimes makes it too intense...

i'm probably going to be on this for a if you have any insights from the movie, please let me know.

Sully & Stories

My boyfriend made fun of my tribute to Gizmo...clearly he doesn't understand all of the milestones we had. He also is mad at Sully for no reason in particular and doesn't seem to get why my cars have names and personalities. So let me try to clear this up some:

Although I have a half brother and a sister, they were both out of the house by the time I was ten. Prior to that, they were typically out doing something leaving me at the house. I was the only kid in my neighborhood by the age of 6. My father was always at work. My mother left me to explore a lot: translation--I had a lot of solitary play as a child.

Through all of this solitary play, my imagination grew much stronger. My barbies had elaborate story lines--every day it was like a soap opera (usually between barbie & skipper). I would pick up where i left off whenever i'd play. In my backyard, I was She*Ra Princess of Power with my trusty Lucky Dog as my valiant steed. Teddy Ruxpin told me hours of stories (so much so, he tragically lost his bottom lip).

I entertained myself by making up stories. To this day, I LOVE stories--books, movies, tv shows, plays--and when I get bored (or don't feel like exploring any stories I know) I tend to make up stories. Rarely do I write them down but they make me happy. Sometimes I share them with others, sometimes not. My cars play a big part in my stories as I'm in them so much. Of course they take on personalities--Transformers do that and nobody thinks it's odd. I do it and suddenly my boyfriend thinks I'm a crazypill. sigh.

Am I the only one who does this? Surely i can't be...right?

Saturday, June 27, 2009


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Wednesday, June 24, 2009


I am completely overwhelmed by God's generosity. I am still in awe of my new car and new living arrangement.

I knew God would provide for me--He always has, He promises to do so, and He always will--but I didn't expect Him to provide in such a huge way. I just needed Gizmo to be fixed but God provided me with a 2009 car...seriously, a few months old car. This was much better than I ever expected. I needed a new place to live and God provides me with a FANTASTIC place to stay, closer to the church, that is cheaper, with an incredibly God-ly family.

I have heard it said that you can't out give God. I agreed with it each time I heard it but I didn't expect tangible blessings here or now. It's not that I doubted God could do it, I just didn't think I would receive it...

God has done great things for me and I am filled with joy.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Alas, poor Gizmo!

Gizmo (not of gremlin fame) was with me for the past decade...he was only two when he became mine. Over the years, I loved him with all I could--the best i could. He was more than a car, he was a friend. We had adventures...some planned, some spontaneous. He was with me when I moved to college & was faithful during those years. He was with me when I moved to Texas & to two different houses while here. He tried his best to take care of me, keep me safe. I love him to this day...but Gizmo was sick. Very sick. He needed more care than I could give him.

I prayed God would work a miracle. I wanted Gizmo better. I wanted him to be restored to his glory days...our adventurous days. This, however, was not part of God's perfect plan. Today (after spending about $900 in the last two weeks to help Gizmo) I took Gizmo back to the lot where I bought him...and we said goodbye. God had performed a miracle in keeping us both safe on the 3 hour drive. Gizmo's front tires where moments away from going out. He was leaking...he needed new shocks/ was more than I could give him.

God worked another miracle and gave me Sullivan. Sullivan is my new baby now. I promise to love him, protect him, and keep him beautiful. I will be faithful to Sully...and we will have new adventures--but Sully will never (mark this), never take the place of Gizmo as he was part of my family.

So goodbye dear Gizmo...and welcome Sully. (this is his twin...we haven't taken family pictures just yet--trust me, Sullivan is even cuter!)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

father's day

Do i buy a present for chris' dad? He's not my dad but i love him. We get along really well. Lord willing one day he will be my father in law. idea.

Friday, June 19, 2009


My pastor & his wife wrote a book called The Marriage Mirror. When it came out months ago, my boss bought a copy for everyone in the office. Not being engaged or married, I wasn't sure if I should read it yet...but curiosity got the better of me & I read a little bit of it (not all of it as guilt then got the better of me).

The parts i read talked about how being married you see all of your qualities reflected by the other person. Over the last week, I have been able to see some very ugly qualities in myself that Chris has pointed out. I hate it.

I am not a fan of being bad at things. I'm even less of a fan of people knowing that I'm bad at things. Now twice (count it: TWICE) in six days Chris & I have talked about me not being gracious to people who don't respect/appreciate me...sure I'm polite but I'm not kind or loving to them. Ouch.

It hurts so incredibly much to know that...and even more to know he sees that in me. Realistically I can't be perfect but I can be kind....and I can let things go. This has now joined with unpacking/making my room pretty as my new goal.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

what's new!

I've been trying to post for a solid week...trying to put down the changes, my random thoughts, document another sugar rush (yeah, crazy but true), and just let you know how good God is.

Update: I have moved. I now live in a different suburb that is only 5 miles from the church. Yes I have shaved off about 7 or 8 miles from my commute. I have also shaved off quite a bit in the rent department. Thank you Jesus! I can save some money (this is fantastic as my car has become a death trap & needs a lot of repairs). I also get to live with a lady from church. She works in the same department and is a tremendous prayer warrior. I now live with her (Aliya) , her husband (Clifford), and their 14 year old daughter (Cassidy)...oh and their four pets: Annie (spunky little black dog), Jack (overweight mellow black dog), Oliver (gray striped cat that likes people), and a fish whose name is escaping me at the moment. This move has been a tremendous blssing and I am so thankful God opened up a new place for me to live. I'm still unpacking but am down to about three duffle bags to sort through...considering I had 9 duffle bags, 10 suit cases, a couple of boxes, and a few random bags I am quite proud of myself. I still need to organize my books & movies but that shouldn't take too long...i hope.

My car is officially a death trap at the moment. I have had to replace the entire brake system--calipers (i hadn't even heard of them), pads, rotors, you name it was replaced. That was a very pretty penny. I also had to get new axles. I still have to replace three more things too...but that will have to wait for a bit. The guy fixing the car said I could wait about six weeks so I'm going to be saving up so my car can be ok.

Prayer meetings the last two weeks has been INCREDIBLE. Steven led us in a discussion of grace prior to praying. I want to be the type of person who is dripping with grace. I want to be so incredibly full of grace when I meet someone they immediately feel loved and welcomed. This is my new goal...ambitious but I think attainable (this is because my precious 94 year old grandma is this type of woman). Today we talked about community within the first church. We were challenged to carry each others' burdens.

In Chris news, he's still amazing. We went to the Rangers/Astros on Tuesday (thanks to rain delay tickets from when I took him to the Yankees game). We had even better seats this time. :-) He very kindly helped me move on Monday night too...that man loves me a lot. My bed is freakishly heavy (seriously! the headboard is a bookcase & it has storage shelves on the side) and he lovingly moved it for me. I could talk your ear off about how wonderful he is & how THANKFUL I am to be his.

We're gearing up for church's a month away. How is it so close? I will be out there for two of the three weeks and I look forward to it! I might be a princess for the stage production AND get to teach Bible study again. Have I mentioned how much I love my job? In about ten minutes I'll head out to a production brainstorming meeting. I love brainstorming meetings. They make me super happy.

Yesterday we celebrated LauriAnn & Rachel's birthdays. We had La Hacienda Ranch (the sundance fajitas will blow your mind....rice & fajita goodness smothered in spicey queso) and got pedicures. I think I got the longest leg massage ever...and it was wonderful! My toes are currently gold with a sparkly gold heart on the big toe.

Through all of this, God has been incredibly kind to me. He provided me with the funds to get work done on my car. He provided me a new place to live so I can save up some money & finish the repairs on my car. He has so graciously placed me in FC Kids where I get to show kids God's love & help them love church on a weekly basis. He has given me a gentleman who loves me. God allows me to take some time from work to celebrate the lives of two ladies with whom I get to work. At prayer meetings I am being challenged to be more than what I am.

So that's my update for now....more to come soon (i hope!)